Wow! It's been so long since I've updated this blog! But today seems as good a day as any to start blogging again. I am not going to lie. I am really not good at blogging, nor do I particularly enjoy writing. I am not going to post too often either. I think that is why this blog died out quite a few years ago. It became a chore and one more thing to do. This time around this blog is about me reflecting on me and my life.
This past week has been a difficult week for my loved ones and friends. They were going through so much and I really couldn't do anything to fix things for them. All I could was listen, support, comfort and just be there for them. It doesn't seem like much, but yet it means a great deal because it was much needed and provided hope life would get better, despite the shadows that were looming above.
The impetus to refresh this blog came from spending time with my best friend today. There is no one who knows and understands me better then her. We have known each other since the 5th grade. She is my sister for life. While we rarely get to speak to or see each other, we know that we are always there for each. When we do get time with each other, the gap hasn't caused any rift. We haven't skipped a beat. We pick up right where we left off, and we do not begrudge each other for being caught up in our lives. There is no truer friendship than one like this.
My best friend is my role model. She has been through so much and continues to fight and push through her obstacles because she has to make her life work, work for her and for her family. She is one of the strongest people I know. She is a daughter, sister, wife, mother and a fighter. This week her husband suffered a seizure and the doctor's discovered a tumor putting pressure on his brain. The fear of losing her husband and father of her children set in, but she fought through to keep calm and maintain control. She was strong for her husband, kids and family. She was putting an enormous amount of pressure on herself to be the strong person for everyone. She needed to just let it all out, and so did I.
She shared her fears and concerns about the future and her struggles over the past year. One person should not carry such a burden and I was more than happy to be her shoulder to cry on. We are so similar in many ways, I understood what she was going through. We are both "bottlers." We like to bottle things up and keep things to ourselves, so we don't burden the ones we love and protect ourselves from criticism or judgment. We are also "bottlers" because we are control freaks, and make ourselves crazy when things are beyond our control. It was a hard lesson to learn for the both of us. I am so grateful to have the support system I have with my friends and family. While it is still difficult for me to share my feelings and thoughts, I am getting better at it. While we were sitting in the hospital today, a light bulb went off for the both of us. A true friend and loved one wants you to express yourself because they want to lighten the load for you, fight your battles with you, and show you how much they love you. It is awesome to know you are not alone in the world. You have a PERSON if not PEOPLE to be there for you no matter what. Isn't that what life is about? Sharing. Sharing happiness, joy, love and prosperity, as well as, struggles, times of weakness, fears, and tears. One cannot understand true happiness, unless one understands that trials that had to be overcome to achieve true happiness.
Despite all of her challenges, my best friend is blessed. She has a husband who loves her and whom she loves just as much. She has two beautiful children. She has a supportive family, who may drive her crazy, but will be there for her. She has friends who love, support and care about her and her family. She also has ME, but I am just as blessed to have HER in my life. She and her family have a rough road ahead, but she knows there will be hands that will be extended to her to offer support. There will be people who will pick her up if she falls. She is a fighter and will get through this with flying colors!
Hope is a powerful thing, but believing in yourself is the ultimate power. Life is too short not to believe in yourself or to take control of your life and make it what you want. It will require a great deal of work and you will have to earn every second of it, but it will be worth it. There will be struggles and obstacles along the way, times where you want to quit and give up, but that is where you have to dig in and give it all you have. It is also those struggles and obstacles that help you to understand what is true happiness and appreciate it. I will be the first person to say 2013 was a horrible year for me, but as bad as it was, I wouldn't change it. 2013 made me the person I am today. It's been a difficult road to travel, but once I shared my thoughts and feelings with my people, the road has been a little bit smoother. I am a lot stronger than I thought. Life is about appreciating the good moments and learning from the bad moments, so you can become who you are meant to be and count your blessings.
This past week has been a difficult week for my loved ones and friends. They were going through so much and I really couldn't do anything to fix things for them. All I could was listen, support, comfort and just be there for them. It doesn't seem like much, but yet it means a great deal because it was much needed and provided hope life would get better, despite the shadows that were looming above.
The impetus to refresh this blog came from spending time with my best friend today. There is no one who knows and understands me better then her. We have known each other since the 5th grade. She is my sister for life. While we rarely get to speak to or see each other, we know that we are always there for each. When we do get time with each other, the gap hasn't caused any rift. We haven't skipped a beat. We pick up right where we left off, and we do not begrudge each other for being caught up in our lives. There is no truer friendship than one like this.
My best friend is my role model. She has been through so much and continues to fight and push through her obstacles because she has to make her life work, work for her and for her family. She is one of the strongest people I know. She is a daughter, sister, wife, mother and a fighter. This week her husband suffered a seizure and the doctor's discovered a tumor putting pressure on his brain. The fear of losing her husband and father of her children set in, but she fought through to keep calm and maintain control. She was strong for her husband, kids and family. She was putting an enormous amount of pressure on herself to be the strong person for everyone. She needed to just let it all out, and so did I.
She shared her fears and concerns about the future and her struggles over the past year. One person should not carry such a burden and I was more than happy to be her shoulder to cry on. We are so similar in many ways, I understood what she was going through. We are both "bottlers." We like to bottle things up and keep things to ourselves, so we don't burden the ones we love and protect ourselves from criticism or judgment. We are also "bottlers" because we are control freaks, and make ourselves crazy when things are beyond our control. It was a hard lesson to learn for the both of us. I am so grateful to have the support system I have with my friends and family. While it is still difficult for me to share my feelings and thoughts, I am getting better at it. While we were sitting in the hospital today, a light bulb went off for the both of us. A true friend and loved one wants you to express yourself because they want to lighten the load for you, fight your battles with you, and show you how much they love you. It is awesome to know you are not alone in the world. You have a PERSON if not PEOPLE to be there for you no matter what. Isn't that what life is about? Sharing. Sharing happiness, joy, love and prosperity, as well as, struggles, times of weakness, fears, and tears. One cannot understand true happiness, unless one understands that trials that had to be overcome to achieve true happiness.
Despite all of her challenges, my best friend is blessed. She has a husband who loves her and whom she loves just as much. She has two beautiful children. She has a supportive family, who may drive her crazy, but will be there for her. She has friends who love, support and care about her and her family. She also has ME, but I am just as blessed to have HER in my life. She and her family have a rough road ahead, but she knows there will be hands that will be extended to her to offer support. There will be people who will pick her up if she falls. She is a fighter and will get through this with flying colors!
Hope is a powerful thing, but believing in yourself is the ultimate power. Life is too short not to believe in yourself or to take control of your life and make it what you want. It will require a great deal of work and you will have to earn every second of it, but it will be worth it. There will be struggles and obstacles along the way, times where you want to quit and give up, but that is where you have to dig in and give it all you have. It is also those struggles and obstacles that help you to understand what is true happiness and appreciate it. I will be the first person to say 2013 was a horrible year for me, but as bad as it was, I wouldn't change it. 2013 made me the person I am today. It's been a difficult road to travel, but once I shared my thoughts and feelings with my people, the road has been a little bit smoother. I am a lot stronger than I thought. Life is about appreciating the good moments and learning from the bad moments, so you can become who you are meant to be and count your blessings.
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